RU OK Day
Today is R U OK Day.
From the website:
It’s a national day of action which aims to prevent suicide by encouraging Australians to connect with someone they care about and help stop little problems turning into big ones.
And the truth is?
I am NOT OK. 
I’ve been feeling like I’m standing right on the edge of the cliff.
A deep, dark abyss below me.
Hoping there isn’t a puff of wind that might blow me over the edge.
It’s been a very scary and frustrating time.
But it’s okay.
I AM getting help.
I don’t think I’ve waited quite as long this time.
And my husband has a better understanding of what we’re dealing with.
So he’s been a little more supportive and proactive this time around.
But, I have to admit, it’s heart-breaking to be back here.
I didn’t expect to ever be back here again.
The Black Dog really is an ugly thing.
I hope people don’t feel less of me because of my struggles.
If there was a way out, I’d take it.
But I’m not suicidal.
I have a wonderful family and friends.
I believe that only God has the right to give and take away life.
Yet, some days I get scared.
Wondering how fine the line is between “not suicidal” and “suicidal”.
I know I don’t EVER want to go there.
But who does?
So, what about you? R U Okay?
Please say something if you’re not.
It might not seem like it, but there ARE people out there who care.
There IS a way out.
You are NOT alone.
I care.
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Thanks for your reminder today… reminder that each of us has our own story… of how or how we dont cope with our daily lives….
I was feeling like I was on the upper until I got sick and now have a sick family and then heard my first cousin had passed away suddenly on Saturday…from a farming community up north. I have struggled with it all this week realising that I dont know if I will ever see him again (in heaven I mean) and just how much I have to be thankful for.. like etenal life, even when I feel like I have let God down again.. and again… its hard to keep things in perspective.. sometimes…. so you are not alone. I do know we are just too hard on ourselves most of the time and let that pull us down instead of looking at ourselves how God sees us.. forgiven and human!!
Food for thought..
Sorry that you’re not so okay but glad that you’re getting help and support. Even though I’ve never met you IRL I don’t think any less of you and I hope nobody else does either.
HUGS. I’m glad you’re getting help…
The message is - Get help. *Always* get help - sometimes the Black Dog returns whether we want it to or not, but each time he’s more recognisable, more people understand (and offer support) and we know what to do. Hugs to you.
Sorry to hear your struggles. But proud of you for getting the help you need. My Mum suffers depression and it seems like something that requires lifelong management. Hope you’re feeling OK real soon.
love you Jodi. that is all.
Hugs to you
LOVE YOU. More than words could ever express. My heart hurts for you. I know this isn’t who you want to be. I MOST CERTAINLY don’t think less of you!!!!
I think some serious prayer is in order here… name the time. I’ll bring the tissues.
Good one for getting in quicker and seeking help…..fantastic for being so open about it as I believe when people see or hear someone else being open about it then it helps them to feel more confident and relaxed about seeking help themselves or at the very least talking about it….THANK YOU!!!!!!!
Thanks for the reminder. talking about it is a great way to deal with these things, even if it is on a blog on the internet. There’s always somebody out there that cares about you, ALWAYS. Dont ever forget that. Sending you hugs.
I understand what you are going through. And I think that more people than you would think are in the same boat but not confident enough to admit it. I think you are very strong to recognize that there o kudos on your strength and bravery. I think you don’t know how strong you actually are. If you were not you wouldn’t have been able to admit it to your readers. And if anyone thinks less of you they are just flat out stupid. keep your head up.
Wow, I’ve just come across your blog and can totally relate. I hope you don’t mind me commenting. Just feel in a totally similar place. You’re so brave putting it out there for others to see. Made me think that perhaps I could do the same. I have a small group that are supporting me, but I also have had others that I’ve turned to shy away from how I’m doing as they don’t want to know. That part really hurts and has a massive impact on top of my depression, pretty well makes me feel worthless. I’m on medication and I’m also getting counselling. I would recommend counselling as it puts a lot of things in perspective and does (at least for a time) help with well being. Hope things get better for you soon. Thanks for sharing.
Hi Emma. thanks for taking the time to comment. It really means a lot. It is good to be able to share with others travelling a similar road. I have just started meeting with a Mental Health nurse to look at ways to “manage” the condition. Guess that means I have to face that it’s not going away any time soon.
But it is good to have support services around to help. I did do counselling for a while. It was helpful (albeit very draining). {{{HUGS}}} Lightening
Thanks for your kind works Susan. It is still a very much misunderstood disease. I try to do what I can to help others understand and reach out to those who are in the same boat. Right now I don’t feel very strong. Lightening
Was just thinking how special it is to “hear” bloggers share their love and concern for one another on here…. its been so lovely to reread comments and immediately feel compassion and understanding … we all need that.. no matter who we are or what our own journey is…. to be accepted, loved for who we are , and encouraged.
So true Lynette! There has been some great support through this blog - for me and also toward one another.