Lightening Online

The fitness and weight loss wagon that is.

Today I started back with my Fitness Trainer at our tiny local gym.

It’s been almost 2 years since we were meeting together on a weekly basis.

We were away and then she went on Maternity Leave.

I have battled on with my fitness myself but I KNOW I do so much better when I’m working with her once a week.

However, my fitness is less of a concern to me than my eating habits.

I have a disfunctional relationship with food.

I remember feeling hungry a lot growing up and suffering from a lot of stomach aches (stress and hunger induced).

I now have an intense fear of feeling hungry.

Going wheat free has certainly helped with the stomach-aches and hunger pains (that were actually stomach aches).

Yet still I struggle with weight loss/gain.

Up - Down - Up - Down goes my weight constantly.

And if I ignore it, it just goes up and up and up.

Some days I get tired of the constant battle with my weight and wish I could just “give up”.

But I know where that will take me.

UP.

So, today begins a fresh attempt at losing a few kg’s.

The good news is that in the past 12 months I have managed to lose around 8kg.

The not so good news is that before that, I managed to gradually gain 19kg.

So there’s still 11kg to get back to the lowest weight that I’ve been in the past 10 years.

15kg to get back to what I was before kids.

But I’d be happy to lose another 7kg.

Actually, I’d just be happy to lose another 1kg.

That’s all it takes doesn’t it?  1kg at a time.

Between my weekly sessions with my trainer at the gym, netball training and netball, I think I have the physical activity pretty much covered.

If I can just stay away from the junk food….

Easier said than done!

But I’m going to give it a go.