Rollercoasters, Gravity and Other Random Stuff
Image by abuckingham via FlickrWhat goes up must come down.
That’s what they say right?
I feel like I’m living on a Rollercoaster right now.
Not that I’ve ever been on a Rollercoaster.
I’m not a big fan of those kind of rides.
More of a Ferris Wheel girl.
Slow and steady (maybe even graceful???? LOL Or not.)
This week seems to have been a week of intense highs.
Followed by really low lows.
And I’m exhausted.
I think you have to come down from the highs. Because they’re the exhausting part. Not that life would be quite the same without them.
But I’m feeling like I could with less of the extreme. In both directions.
Because the depth of the lows after an intense high are not much fun. 
Not that I want to wish away the good stuff that has happened in the past week.
I just wish I didn’t feel quite so out of control of my emotional swings.
Or something like that.
In unrelated news. Netball training was last night. My only exercise so far this week as things turned out. Which is no-ones fault but my own. I’m quite capable of exercising at home. I just didn’t.Training is always challenging. But I like it that way.
There is so much to learn and my poor wittle brain doesn’t always keep up with the speed of play (which is actually quite slow compared to other grades but anyway….).
So much for being a positive influence. I had my slack moments last night (shh….don’t tell the coach, she wasn’t there at that moment 
).
I had it covered though. “My girl” didn’t get the ball either. She was collapsed on the ground not that far away from me.
It was all sorted. As long as she didn’t get the ball, my job was done. 
All that aside, it was a very satisfying training session.
They tell me I’m improving each week.
So I’m happy with that.
I had a phone report with the Psychiatrist yesterday. Well, Farmboy did the “reporting”. I’m still pretty “phone phobic” a lot of the time.So far we’re reasonably happy with my progress on the decreased dosage of medication.
Which means next week I start the next stage of reduction.
So if I go any loopier than usual (if that’s even possible), that might be why.
But hopefully I won’t.
My counsellor is back from her international holiday this week. My nightmares are also back.Not quite as bad this time though.
It’s all part of the healing process I think.
So it’s Friday. And yet again I haven’t written a Tightwad Gazette Discussion post.Because I feel more like dribbling than thinking.
You won’t all leave me if I “dribble” occasionally will you???
What about if I “dribble” all the time?
Please say you’ll stay with me no matter what.
Cos I’m kinda needy like that.
And I REALLY HATE it when my wordpress editor thinks it knows better than me about how I want my posts spaced. So this doesn’t necessarily look like I want it to.
But I’m gonna publish it anyway.
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Just so you know….I SAW YOU slacking off last night! LOL! Nothing escapes me! It’s ok, I’m not running a boot camp (that is the job of that other woman, yeah she knows who I’m talking to!).
Of course we will stick by you when you are dribbling. Your dribbling is quite entertaining, you don’t have to be eloquent all the time. Or any of the time for that matter.
Catch you tomorrow.
ROFLOL - I nearly wet myself laughing at your comment Sharon. The funniest thing about it though was the other team member whinging about us taking a break is the first one to take a break during the fitness part of training. Not boot camp? I heard you yelling at my partner during sit-ups last night (it was you wasn’t it - I couldn’t see).
Rollercoasters are yuk. It isn’t so much the “up and down” but the side-side “oh gosh we are doing a corkscrew spin” that makes me ick.
What is worse is that Jr Stuffy is big enough to be at the “you must be this tall to ride” level and *loves* roller coasters.
I was happy to go to Wiggles World. He wanted to ride every roller coaster in Dream World and Sea World.
LOL Stuffy.
Lucky for me Farmboy is a fan of thrill-seeking rides. HE can take the kids!!! Mind you, not sure Leighton is big enough YET (at 10!!!). He’s a bit of a shorty, surprise, surprise!!!
Hang in there! You are ok and I think its all part of the parcel of “weaning” . Remember the good times you have had in the past few weeks…… maybe get back into the garden and spend time outdoors with nature! Especially in this lovely weather!
Happy netballing tomorrow - you had better watch put for that tough coach of yours!
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Thanks Lynette. I do need to get out in the garden more. Problem is, nothing needs doing at the moment!!! (The problem with only having a small garden!).
But our nice sunny days we’ve been having are lovely and getting outside would help. Some days I hide too much behind the computer. Thanks for your wishes for tomorrow. Hopefully my mood swings don’t affect things too much. :/ Poor old Sharon. I’ll give her a complex if I give her too much of a hard time. Do you think she knows we’re only teasing her????
Hang in there.
Hope things balance themselves out soon.
Hey,
I personally dont like AD’s because it takes away from me those high highs. It also takes away the lows, but personally I prefer them with the highs than no either extreeme.
You can do this. You will find a way to balance yourself. The other thing is to work out your ‘cycle’ I know how mine works now and I can prepare myself a bit for those really bad days to come. I also know that I bounce back up after them. Its taken a while, but I’ve gone from a 3-4 day full cycle to about 3 weeks per cycle. So I get one week of completely up, no sleep, motivated for everything and cant slow myself down, one week really low, catching up sleep, hiding from the world etc, and then one week almost normal. If I catch myself in the normal week and get back to my real life then I can sometimes maintain that for a few weeks at a time. Then the high week, low week, normalcy for a bit etc. I know this now and manage it ok.
I try not to suffer depression, so much as utilise it and manage it. Hugs I know you can do this too.
That’s ok. I’m sure you are well aware that I can take it as well as give it out!
Yes that was me yelling at you during sit ups (while I sat on my bum). The task master was busy with sit ups herself, I felt duty bound to yell in her place! Well, thats my excuse and I’m sticking to it!
I will still come if you dribble all the time. I like it best when you just tell it like it is. Hope you get out of the doldrums soon. I like what Amy said, but that’s from a position of ignorance - I have never experienced depression.
Mind you, not sure Leighton is big enough YET
Well considering Stuffy Jr was *4* at the time … (though big enough to pass for 7)(Mrs Stuffy and I both have brothers that are > 2 meters tall and Jr stuffy seems headed in that direction)
sorry you are going through a rough patch Ligthening. It is always a balance I think to manage the extreme highs and the low lows and everything in between. When we are juggling a whole of stuff - it is reasonable that we are going to drop some balls . Go easy on yourself.
I like your dribble - I think I relate to it… agree with what has already been said.
dribble away. is that a netball thing, or basketball?
or are we needing a new box of hankies?
you’ld fit in fine here.